It hurts me when you say goodbye Before we've started you've drawn the line I didn't mean to rush into things I didn't ask to have a fling So can't we even stay as friends For I will love you, until the very end
Baby oh, how I miss you so Baby oh, how I love you so Just to see you smile, never asked for more Just to hear your voice, never asked for more Oh baby oh..
I know I've never felt this way before Ever since love left me, walked right through the door I thought that I would never love again I thought that I'll never get over the pain But since I met you my heart began to birth Till the very end, it's you whom I will love
Baby oh, how I miss you so Baby oh, how I love you so Just to see you smile, never asked for more Just to hear your voice, never asked for more Oh baby oh.. Oh baby oh.. Oh baby oh..
Finally, I've completed this song. Asked Lao Ma for the verse 2 but somehow the words just appeared in my head the moment she logged off. So, don't need already but thanks anyway! Haha.. It's a rather simple song, would 'perform' upon request. And do give your honest comments on it! =)
Friday, July 27, 2007
11:14 AM
Secret..
In the meantime, just want to share this beautiful song that I really like. New favourite! Heh.. =)
11:11 AM
Baby, Oh..
Out of the blue, I got this inspiration to write a new song. And I've decided to title it "Baby, Oh.." Haha.. It's still in progress though. I've a draft of the chorus, but I think there'll definitely be major changes as things go along. Hope it comes out well! =p
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
11:07 AM
Contradictions of the mind.
Two thoughts went through my mind this few weeks. The worst thing is, they contradict each other.
Thought Number 1 Fairy tales. I love fairy tales. I've used to believe in fairy tale relationships. That's the kind of perspective that I have when I think about relationships. They ought to be lovey dovey, romantic, full of meaningful and wonderful sacrifices of decisions and giving up of personal comforts to compliment the other person. Stories of the one and only. Stories of happily ever after.
Thought Number 2 Relationships are like taking an English paper. MCQ first, followed by an essay. In this paper, there is only one MCQ and one essay. The rule is, you cannot move onto the essay until you have answered the MCQ, and you have to write according to your MCQ answer. Now, the problem is.. If I were to choose A, will I regret not choosing either B, C or D? Dilemma.
What a clash of thoughts. Such vast contradictions. On one hand, I would love to be in my own little fairy tale, with the princess of the story. Yet on the other hand, who do i want the princess to be? Maybe that's why I'm single. It's not that there are no candidates. There are always factors in the way that affect my final decision. Factors like the contradictions going on in my mind. Factors like the other party being not interested in me, or not interested in relationships altogether. Factors like the other party being unavailable. Factors, factors, factors.
*tick tick tick... tick tick.. tick.* when it all ended, it stopped the day when time stood still and everything came to a halt.
the winds of time blew by the chill of the ages crept and frozen there it lies.
*tick. tick tick.. tick tick tick...* days and months and years after, the ice has hardened through. there comes a little flame and warmth, something it never knew. slowly the waters start to run, and it began to thaw. the gears have again start to move, the heart begins to love once more.
Sunday, July 22, 2007
10:00 AM
untitled.
I happened to hear this song when I was in army, and I really liked it. And then it happened. Ah Bao got into a bike accident and was in coma for 2-3months. I went to visit him a few times, and seeing him made my heart ached every single time. It was scary, and I was afraid that I'll lose a dear friend just like that. But I never gave up hope, praying for him constantly and hoping that he would wake up. Thank God he's fine now.. Met him the other day for lunch. I really don't know how to face him. He's not fully recovered, and, I really pray and hope that one day he'll be fully well again.
My friend my bro, be strong no matter how the winds of life may blow..
9:56 AM
Lost Post.
I found my lost post! The post that I wrote just the night before OWeek Precamp. Haha..
"Having no self confidence is worse than being thrown naked into the streets."
I watched A Knight's Tale all over again. One of my favourite medieval time-based movies. In the movie, there was this particular scene where a naked writer was seen walking down the road past the main character. When asked what he was doing, he replied saying that he was "trudging".
trudged, trudg·ing, noun
–verb (used without object) 1. to walk, esp. laboriously or wearily: to trudge up a long flight of steps. –verb (used with object) 2. to walk laboriously or wearily along or over: He trudged the deserted road for hours. –noun 3. a laborious or tiring walk; tramp.
He explained the term 'trudging' to the main character, with an air of pride and confidence. There was no shame in his eyes, and no quaver in his voice at his nakedness. That scene set me thinking, and thus the birth of the phrase above.
It is very important as individuals that we know who we are. On top of all things, we need to be secure of our own identity as a person, and not allow the judgment of the world and society to affect our self confidence and self worth. No matter what people say or do to us, no matter what the circumstances may be, we need to hold our heads up high and face it. I learnt at a young age a common phrase called "facing the music". This stuck to me throughout my years of growing up. It taught me that no matter what situation I might be in, however bad the mistake and thus the consequence, I need to suck up my courage and confidence, stamp down the pride and face it. I have learnt from dealing with every situation in this manner that it helps build up my self confidence and identity. Not relenting to external pressures as to who I am or who I want to be, but rather, marking my destiny guided by Him and following His paths.
P.S: Writing this the night before precamp for oweek. Mixed feelings at the moment. I think it affected the composition of the entry. Pardon me.
Saturday, July 21, 2007
7:40 AM
退后
I love this song. Brings back memories, makes me emo, but I still love it. =)
Friday, July 20, 2007
10:35 AM
Way back into love..
Caught the show Music and Lyrics on VCD today. The plot was rather predictable and cheesy, but I still love it nonetheless. Love the lovey feeling between the main casts, and how they brought each other out of living in their pasts. Such a wonderful feeling. I was thinking about my past after the show. Then I realised why I insist on staying single for now. Maybe somehow, I've lost the courage to love, to be in a relationship. It's such a dilemma. One side says "I want to", but the other side says "Let's not jump in". Wrong time to think of such stuff. I know I know. But I can't help it. It's been so long. Alright, let's not bore each other with this post.
Here, a thought that made me happy today as I think about it.
"the eggs are really nice"
And here's the lyrics to Way Back Into Love.. Love it! =)
Haley: Ive been living with a shadow over head Ive been sleepin with a cloud above my bed Ive been lonely for so long Trapped in the past, I just cant seem to move on
Hugh: I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away Just incase I ever need them again someday Ive been setting aside time,to clear a little space in the cornners of my mind
chorus: All I want to do is find a way back into love I cant make it through without a way back into love ohh
Haley: I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine Ive been searching but I just dont see the signs I know that its out there Theres got to be something for my soul somewhere
Hugh: I've been looking for someone to shed some light Not just somebody to get me through the night I could use some direction, and I'm open to your suggestions
Chrous All I want to do is find a way back into love I cant make it through without a way back into love and If I open my heart again I guess Im hopin you'll be there for me in the end
Haley: There are moments when I dont know if its real or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration, not just another negotiation
Chorus: All I want to do is find a way back into love I cant make it through without a way back into love and If I open my heart to you Im hopin you'll show me what to do and if you help me to start again you know that I'll be there for u in the end
Friday, July 13, 2007
10:26 AM
Scribble Two.. Moving Forward.
Take a moment to look at your watch. If it is an analog watch, follow the second hand as it makes one round around the face. If it is a digital watch, follow it for one minute till you see the minute digit jump to the next.
From the smallest fraction of time that Man was able to measure, to the biggest, time itself has never stood still. It is constantly on the move, constantly going forward. It is in a way, progressing. Because of the constant movement of time, everything else on the face of the Earth is being led into a constant forward motion. Every moment, something changes. It could be the physical appearance of something huge, like the mountain. Or it could be something small, like the growth of a bacteria. It could be mental, like the constant changes of peoples' minds. The change could be positive, or negative. It could mean the decay of something, or the birth and growth of another. But whatever it is, it is still moving forward.
Since everything on the face of the Earth is in a constant motion of going forward, it would mean that our bodies are in a constant state of going forward too. It is not just about our bodies growing and 'dying' and degenerating. It is about the posture and attitude that our bodies taking, being in a constant motion of moving forward, moving on.
Many things come up as we live this life. Many different circumstances, experiences and events. It could be a joyous birthday celebration, falling ill, receiving top grades and rewards, break-ups, getting married, or even deaths. All these affect us in our own special and unique way. These events shape us to be who we are. Because of the different ways people react and internalise the events that happen to them, it results in the nurturing of different characters and attitudes.
There are people in this world who take things in their stride. They learn and grow quickly through the different experiences, and move on with a positive heart. These are the people who are in sync with the universal forward motion that runs throughout the entire universe, and is in every single minuscule composition of us. Because of this sync, these people tend to be stronger in terms of emotional and mental stability, being more capable of taking stress and dealing with difficult circumstances. Often, these are the people who excel in whatever they do, and these are the people who flourish in this world today.
Of course, there are people in this world who take the opposite stand. They look back at the past hurts and pains, clinging onto what has already gone and passed them by. These people are those who are not in sync with that universal motion. Because of that, a constant struggle and battle is waged within them each and everyday. As the forward motion pushes on with every passing moment, they choose to look back and walk backwards towards their past. This clash of momentum leads to the instability of their emotions and mental health. They are easily agitated, highly reactive to changes and situations, and uncertain of what to do next. Often, these are the people who struggle through life, wondering what they did to deserve the bad incidents, failing to perform to their maximum capacity and abilities. These are the people who end up shortchanging themselves in life.
Therefore, it is important for us to make a decision to move forward, to move on. Whatever the situation may be, whatever the random incidents may be, we have to make a decision to let what has passed, be the past. Only by taking a step forward and being in sync with that motion, will we be able to break free from the vicious cycle of failing and wallowing in self pity. Only then can we discover our true potential, perform to our maximum capacity, and fulfill our God-given destinies.
As the saying goes, "A champion is not one who never loses, but one who never quits."
"Thought this up during the ride home after cell group today. Just a random thought, a random theory that popped up in my mind again."
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
9:50 AM
First Scribble.. An Intro.
I've stopped blogging for a very long time. And I think I want to restart. There are many thoughts that flood my mind. Many captions and phrases and stuff. Many warped theories of mine. And I think I would regret that one day, I forget all these. So I decided that I should write them down here.
Hi Passer-by, whoever you might be. Welcome to Aly-ism, the way of life which I live by, my way, His way.
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