Ok.. My bro intro this video to me, and it really captivated me. About the relationship between this girl and God and how the Devil and the world tries to come and ruin it. Very beautifully done skit! Take some time off, watch this, and I hope God touches you. =)
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
5:33 AM
my untitled
I'm finally done with my new song! HAHA! It's called "My Untitled" cos I really could not think of a title for it. Wait till the inspiration comes. Or if you have any suggestions, tag it! =) Alrighty.. Here goes..
i've never met a girl like you so pure and a heart that beats so true i've never seen such eyes like yours so alluring with a gaze that thaws
i thank God for the day our lives have crossed i thank God for the times, we've spent from dusk to dawn and i, will love you more... and i, will love you more...
the times have passed me by as i, sat in the corner the world has walked on by as my, heart starts to falter and then u walked on by my side, and all doesn't matter.. and i, will love you more.. and i, will love you more..
-music-
i thank God for the day our lives have crossed i thank God for the times, we've spent from dusk to dawn and i, will love you more... and i, will love.. and i, will love.. and i, will love you more...
It's a more upbeat song, so I'm not sure whether I did good for this. Never wrote a song while feeling happy before, so I hope my first attempt is good enough for now. =p
Monday, August 27, 2007
7:32 PM
New Song! *in the making*
I wanted to badly to learn a new song last night. Surfed all the guitar sites for something that is catchy and easy to pick up. Songs along the line of Collide by Howie Day, etc.. But I just couldn't find any and I put the guitar down. I wanted to play something, but the old tunes which I've learnt so far seemed dusty and did not excite me. So I thought, I should write a new song. The only problem is, I can't seem to find inspiration! Gosh..
Ok.. Today.. I picked up the guitar, and played with the capo. Fifth fret, played Collide. First fret, played Welcome to My Life (badly). Left it there and played around with the chords.. Then out of nowhere I just decided to sing something with the tune. And.. TADA! The first line was birthed!!!
"The times have passed me by as I, sat in the corner"
Haha! No idea whether this, including the tune, should be in the chorus or verse or pre-chorus, or bridge. But this tune and song seems to hold much more possibilities than the ones I've written so far. More upbeat and happy. Finally! I can write a happy song! Haha.. =p I need more brain juice! Heh..
Thursday, August 23, 2007
9:06 PM
Random Thoughts
"There's a difference between being dragged into a battle for life and death, and walking into the arena with your head held up high"
I read this line, although not perfectly quoted, from Harry Potter. It was Albus Dumbledore's words to Harry, and it sort of got my attention. It's funny how even a book like Harry Potter could have spoken to me, but I really think this sentence makes alot of sense.
I'm sure everyone knows that life has its many complexities and challenges that we cannot possibly predict or fathom. Noone knows what tomorrow, or even the next blinking moment would bring. Life, just isn't easy. There are times when life seems to be toying with us, making fools out of our already trying existence.
But nevertheless, even till the battle for our lives (kind of dramatic here), we have to maintain the sense of dignity. Would you rather be dragged, screaming and wailing into an arena with all odds against you, or make a decision to face the music and give it your all? I would definitely choose the latter, so that at the end of the day, whether I stand in the middle with my hand held high in triumph, or I lay on my back in the dust in defeat, I would be able to look at myself without regrets. There have already been many instances in my life which I had wished I did not make certain decisions, when I wished that I could have tried harder, thought and planned further and been more mature and rational. Lessons which I have learnt the hard way, through tears and bloodshed, heartache and sorrow; in joy and laughter, in embarrassment and celebrations. But I'm constantly learning, continually changing and constantly growing. Who I was just yesterday, may not be the same person whom you're talking to today. Who I was an hour ago, may not be the same Alywin who made that weird remark that dumbfounded you just seconds ago. As I like to tell people who sought to know who I am, "Noone will really get to know who I really am, and the intricate nature that makes me who I am. How I operate and how things happen in my life." Well, maybe I may be predictable most of the time, but that's because a regular pattern has been etched out on the outer surface of response. But on the inside, even I have no idea what births every moment. That's how my world is I suppose. Aly-ism. Welcome to my life.
I do not know what to expect, I don't know where the journey will lead us. But for now, I'm contented to just know that you know I exist. Every part of me wants to go forward, but I can't because I know you don't want to. So I shall bind that feeling heart of mine, lock in the loving emotions which I would like to pour out and shower you with, and be.. your good friend.
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
10:24 AM
Happy happy day!
It was a happy day. Because a few things happened. Got a nice new cover for my Mac, and, had a lovely evening! =)
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
12:05 PM
Major Updates
Alright. It's been a few days since I've last blogged, and many many things have happened.
Firstly, it was Arts Bash cum Pageant. I was so nervous the night before it that I couldn't sleep well at all. Uncertain of how the flow of programs would be and stuff, all I could do was force my eyes close and try to rest as much as possible. I was expecting Nigel to win it, so there wasn't much hopeful thought in me. The pageant came and went, and unexpectedly, I won! Goodness. I really didn't know what was happening. It felt so unreal. Well, after that, I didn't feel special or excited or happy at all. No feelings at all. It's not as if I would start to sprout wings or have super powers or anything. How cool it would be if I had after being crowned Arts King. Haha.. Ok.. My boyish fantasies are running wild.. =p
Next up, Hey Gorgeous. This was bad. Seriously. I nearly wanted to give it up totally. Was rather disheartened when my bro didn't want to go on tv with me that I really had no mood at all. But, I totally understand. He's the kind that likes to support behind the scenes. And I really really really appreciate what he's done in the background, and never claiming credit. Bro, thank you so much! =) He asked me to give Carol a call, and so I did. Thank God for her. She's like the best. Helped me to find Shu Ning and Bennett and Adeline to go on tv with me. Gosh.. What would I do without her. Haha. And thanks to Shu Ning as well! HAHA!!! She really sacrificed alot alot man. I wonder what people would say after they see the program on tv and the scene she was in. Haha! =p Well, preparations for the Hey Gorgeous was really really bad. I was nervous, and scared and totally stressed out. The butterflies in my stomach were doing rapid laps round and round so much that I felt like vomiting even at home when I thought about performing in front of a live audience and being voted upon. The biggest discouragement however came from the fact that I'll be facing off with last year's Arts King, Kenneth! He's like how cool and suave and popular man!!! Even I vote for him! =p So the event came, and I went up and played the guitar and sang the new song which I wrote. I was trembling and I had to focus real hard to control my fingers or else I'll be totally losing it man. Thank God I managed to finish the song without any hiccups. Phew! In the end, unexpectedly AGAIN, I won! Oh my goodness.. I really was stunned this time round. I thought Kenneth was the sure winner that in my mind, all I wanted to do was to take this opportunity to sing the song which I wrote (for her) to the public (and hope she hears it). Gosh.. What a weird streak..
What comes next? I do not know.. Just as one does not know what tomorrow will bring. All I can do is to trust in His plans. Wherever He may bring me, There I will go..
Friday, August 17, 2007
7:51 AM
10 Things I Hate About You
Was having supper last night at home and watched this show again. I bet it's the 50th time I've caught it. One of my favourite romantic chick flicks! Haha. Love the poem that Kat wrote. Here it goes..
I hate the way you talk to me And the way you cut your hair I hate the way you drive my car I hate it when you stare I hate your big dumb combat boots And the way you read my mind I hate you so much it makes me sick It even makes me rhyme I hate the way you're always right I hate it when you lie I hate it when you make me laugh Even worse when you make my cry I hate it when you're not around And the fact you didn't call But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you Not even close Not even a little bit Not even at all
i wish i knew for sure, but now all that i can do is to trust and wait
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
10:28 AM
If you had a bad day..
Today was a bad bad day. It all started off fine, lunch with Sarah and Wen Jia and then the pageant rehearsals. But then everything changed after that. Something like how the weather of Singapore is like. One moment sunny, the next moment it rains like crazy.
Went for dinner with QZ. Bad move of mine. Had indian food 30mins before dragonboat training. How smart of me right.. So in the end, I was feeling quite sick halfway through the run, and during the circuit training, I ran to the toilet and puked everything out. Felt like shit. Sigh... But I'm really glad that I went for the training still. The seniors were really encouraging, and my bro was sticking to me all the way too. Bro, thanks alot! *I know you really wanted to go for dinner and bond with the seniors but because I was sick you couldn't go with them. I'm so so sorry!*
After training, something else happened. I'm not gonna blog it out because it's only respectful that I don't. But I really felt damn guilty and shitty. Cos I've made a friend upset. And I don't ever want to upset a close friend of mine, whether guy or girl.
So.. double whammy.. training. and the incident. there goes my mood totally man. all the way down the drain.
Went to Hong Kong Cafe for dinner cum supper with Char. What really cheered me up was the thick toast, half-boiled eggs and Horlicks Ice! Best thing that happened to me in the entire day. Felt so contented after eating them. =p
I'm so tired now. My whole body feels like jelly. There's pageant rehearsal again tmr night. Well, I really think I don't stand a chance actually. But never mind.. At least I made cool friends in the process. That's the best reward ever. =)
you are my sunshine, my only sunshine you make me happy, when the skies are grey you never know dear, how much i love you please don't take, my sunshine away
Thursday, August 9, 2007
5:27 AM
*ah choo*
OOOPSSS!!! been too long since I blogged. Must have collected dust. Haha. Well, the past week had been real busy. Oweek and the bidding for modules. I HATE BIDDING!!! !@#$%^&*()_)(*&^%$#@!
Grrrr....
But thank goodness it's all over, for Sem 1. And I got all the modules I bidded for! Yay!!!
Oweek has been fun so far, although nothing beats Arts Camp! Haha. =p Made alot of new friends, the new freshies, and even the stale ones whom I've never got the chance to befriend during Arts Camp. Yupp!
Stayed in hall with QZ and really got to bond with him. I really thank God for a bro like him. Hallelujah!!! =)
A little something about pageant.. First time doing a photoshoot that requires me to pose freestyle. I was so nervous I just froze there. The result, UGLY PHOTOS! Haha.. And.. my partner.. Sarah's so tall la! goodness.. I felt so intimidated standing beside her in her heels. Haha.. And I made a comment that got me into trouble. Haha.. I said, "why can't my partner be shorter, like caroline." oops! me and my big mouth. =p I seriously don't think I'll win or whatever. Cos Nigel is like how cool can! Think he'll win! A house still, so it's ok. Haha!
I watched 10 Things I Hate About You again today. My favourite romantic chick flick. Haha. Doens't fail to make me laugh and.. =x Even though it's probably the 50th time I've watched it..
i want my own love story, and i want you to share it with me