Tuesday, July 24, 2007
11:07 AM
Contradictions of the mind.
Two thoughts went through my mind this few weeks. The worst thing is, they contradict each other.
Thought Number 1Fairy tales. I love fairy tales. I've used to believe in fairy tale relationships. That's the kind of perspective that I have when I think about relationships. They ought to be lovey dovey, romantic, full of meaningful and wonderful sacrifices of decisions and giving up of personal comforts to compliment the other person. Stories of the one and only. Stories of happily ever after.
Thought Number 2Relationships are like taking an English paper. MCQ first, followed by an essay. In this paper, there is only one MCQ and one essay. The rule is, you cannot move onto the essay until you have answered the MCQ, and you have to write according to your MCQ answer. Now, the problem is.. If I were to choose A, will I regret not choosing either B, C or D?
Dilemma.
What a clash of thoughts. Such vast contradictions. On one hand, I would love to be in my own little fairy tale, with the princess of the story. Yet on the other hand, who do i want the princess to be? Maybe that's why I'm single. It's not that there are no candidates. There are always factors in the way that affect my final decision. Factors like the contradictions going on in my mind. Factors like the other party being not interested in me, or not interested in relationships altogether. Factors like the other party being unavailable. Factors, factors, factors.
*tick tick tick... tick tick.. tick.*
when it all ended, it stopped
the day when time stood still
and everything came to a halt.
the winds of time blew by
the chill of the ages crept
and frozen there it lies.
*tick. tick tick.. tick tick tick...*
days and months and years after,
the ice has hardened through.
there comes a little flame and warmth,
something it never knew.
slowly the waters start to run,
and it began to thaw.
the gears have again start to move,
the heart begins to love once more.